To move forward, you must first take a step

Let us all get productive and motivated!

This time last year I was living in the lockdown bubble, enjoying all the time focusing on myself and feeling happy for the ‘me time’ I deserved, but I have come to realise, I am a pretty fucking boring person to be around.

I really miss going out and meeting up with my friends! None of this ‘6 feet apart’, no hugs and cuddles bullshit. I miss going on random weekend adventures. Getting in my car and singing along to Queen songs at the top of our lungs.

I miss random Sunday trips to IKEA, where I buy loads of random plants, I give my all to keep alive.

I miss the beaches. The cold, wet beaches of the UK. I will take them, wrapped in a blanket, watching the sun set and the stars form.

I miss feeling free.

I know the world is finally opening again, but it is just not the same at the moment.

Restrictions are still in place, and half the time we still don’t know all the do’s and do not’s. Are we breaking the law? Should we be doing this? Should we be doing that? I’m fed up with having to Google every single move I make.

I do get it, but that does not mean I have to like it.

Work is stressful...not in a "oh my god, I can't handle this" kind of way, just in a, here we go again, back here we are...

Meeting, meeting, meeting. Zoom, zoom, zoom. It feels like we never stop.

All these changes are just hurting my brain.

I love being busy, and I really don't mind change, but can we have a little bit of routine every now and then please.

I know I'm being a moany hypocritical bitch...I want change, I want the same...but life just seems a bit flipped.

I think that is the problem with the world, on its best days, we never have anything better to do than moan, and I'm unfortunately, with nothing to break that up, falling into that.

I'm trying to take a step back from a lot of things, and continue to focus on me, but I can't get myself out of this wingey way of life.

I've been feeling so run down over the last couple of weeks and I have wasted half my long weekend in bed doing nothing. Sunday and Monday I’ve had to squeeze all my plans in.

I've joined Tiktok, yay! As I have decided to start uploading all my old and new bathbomb videos. Just trying to do something new, that is not going to take too much of my time up.

Blogging and Instagram has really been on the back burner, because how many pictures in my bedroom can I really get away with, and what is there really to talk about. I mean I have really pulled this crap out of my arse haven’t I!

Now the world is getting all jabby jabbed up, maybe we can be back to normal in time for August, when I can go Scotland and see all my family.

I am meeting my Mama down in Skeggy next weekend, finally getting to see her after 9 long months.

Woop! I get a beach day!

Me and the housemates were going to look at getting some staycation accommodation, but it was too last minute and too stressful to sort out. So, we are just driving down for the day now. Which is still going to be so needed and so fun!

I’ve started reading a new book too. “The Highly Sensitive Person’s Guide to Dealing with Toxic People” by Shahida Arabi, MA. It is so good.

I’m getting back into researching about Psychology as well. I’ve always found the mind so fascinating. Maybe that’s because mines so fucked up! Ha! I am just so glad to feel great about picking up a book again.

I miss reading, and it is not for lack of trying. I used to get through a book a week, but it’s been taking me months. I can’t exactly say I don’t have the time. Just cannot get that focus.

So hopefully getting back into something I love, will help me get that motivation back.

I have also picked up “The Psychology Book” – by DK books and of course I had to treat myself to a bit of superhero love with “The Super Hero Movie Book” by Helen O’Hara.

Yes, back in my reading zone.

Anyway, let’s just stop making noise for the sake of it.

Start small, getting back into the world doesn’t have to be instant.

One little thing at a time, just as long as it makes you happy.

Show gratitude to yourself.

And remember…

You’ve got this!

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