Some are born mad, some achieve madness, and some have madness thrust upon 'em.

Sometimes I like to pretend I’m a super nerdy chick, who thinks she is tots cool at gaming. Don’t get me wrong I am a complete geek, but gaming is certainly not my forte.

Guess who got herself a PlayStation 4, now the PlayStation 5 is out. Yep, that would be me! Going to be getting my Fortnite on! Obviously, I am going to get spiderman, and while I still have my Xbox to play For Honor, think I’m going to have to get it again, (it is about the only game I am actually pretty good at). Am I going to be good at the others!? Fuck no! noob alert!

Crazy right!

Yep, that's me summed up in a bubble, and why try to deny it any longer! I'm so done pretending I'm not. Tis is me and I'm bloody proud of it.

I'm passionate, I care and sometimes I fuck up. I question everything. I don't hold your past, present or potential prospects against you. I might bitch and moan sometimes, but who the fuck doesn't? I'll also definitely call you out for your shit, but I'll also go out of my way to support those around me who need it.

So, a big fuck you to everyone, who after this bullshit year, continues to share "be kind" while shagging their best friend’s fella and judging others. Practice what you preach or just don't preach at all. Simples!

I think it’s time to stop regretting our past mistakes and take them for what they are, memories.

Cuts and bruises don't last, they make us who we are, and you know what, fuck it! Mistakes are made every day, so why live within them. Glass get shattered and truths are revealed, and from this we learn lessons. Stronger bonds are always built out of all the chaos in this world, so let’s just all deal with it, and move on.

I will never deny or say I didn't want something when I did, nor have I ever thought I was better than anyone else. We've all fucked up, we've all cheated, lied or betrayed someone in the past. So, I'm not one to judge, so neither should you...I mean, can anyone at this point!?

Sometimes I hate myself, because I always try my hardest to keep everyone around me happy, even when they don't deserve it. I'm so fed up with being the person people step on to make themselves feel better, and I'm fucking fed up with allowing them same people to walk all over me.

I am always at a constant fight with myself, wondering if I should still be painting everyone with the same brush. Should I just stop giving people the benefit of the doubt? Maybe I should; start thinking I am better than those who always go out their way to hurt me? Of course, I never would, those thoughts never win out, the anger and annoyance always subsides, and I just let it go in the end, because what's the point of holding grudges.

I don't mind admitting when I'm wrong and I say sorry when its needed. I live and I learn. I am however, finished justifying and defending everyone’s actions.

Because if they can be a bitch...why can't I?

Life’s too short to let people take control over it. To suck up every tiny bit of happiness you can find. You've got to keep smiling and being positive even when people continue to talk behind your back, because what life is that? When searching for people’s pain is more enjoyable then finding love and joy in your own life.

So, leave them to it and just do you, and be bloody proud of every move you make.

Because what if you started standing your ground, stop supporting those who throw you to the wolfs and leave them to defend for themselves for once, then what? Maybe their comments will become justified?! Right!?

Let's face it, if we become the bitches they all think we are, they wouldn't like it.

Therefore, will we continue to always be supportive, kind and caring as much as possible? I will, because that just who I am. No matter what anybody thinks!

Am I going to be getting on with my life be happy and confident, yes!

Will I also break down every now and then...of course, because I am a fucking human...Will I get annoyed when this happens...your damn right. "Pull you shit together Sharon!"

I can't help but feel enthusiastic, and speak my mind, get myself stuck in and share my opinions. I seek knowledge, I look for answers and understanding.

Do I still become a complete and utter stress bubble because of overthinking and paranoia? Your damn fucking right!

Will I ever change, fuck no...so why try to? I'm just going to embrace it and remind myself of all the crazy incredible things I've got going on in my life.

You want to laugh at my tears go head, please continue to make me stronger...

Sometimes I break, sometimes I hurt and beg for the world to stop spinning, but just because the rain falls, it doesn't make anyone weak...

I know what I want.

I have enough self-respect to know when to walk away.

I don't feel the need to allow others to take over my life, and speak to me like crap, and neither should you. No matter how many times they gift you with apologies.

Patterns are patterns and if there is no end in sight, then walk the fuck away.

It’s your life and just because others don't understand your actions doesn't mean you should stop trying to achieve every goal and idea you have.

Be kind when and where you can, but always fight for what you believe in! And believe me, I am so ready to arm up for battle! You are not going to please everyone, and that's okay.

I am me; a crazy fucking obsessed weirdo and I’m fucking proud of it!

You've got this!

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